Sorry I’m Such a Slacker

I’ve been a slacker the past month and haven’t posted.

At all.

Sorry, Friends!

I know you’re like us – life gets chaotic at times. We struggle to make it through each day and keep up with the demands of work, family, ministry, and so much more.

Since mid-June, here are some “highlights” from our family’s life:

I developed internal bleeding late in my first trimester of pregnancy. Was hospitalized two weeks and on bed rest for nine.

Josh was admitted for three days to the local cancer hospital, to undergo follow up scans and rule out cancer recurrence. Praise God, he’s still cancer free!

We started the process of renewing our legal residency in Ukraine, which typically involves Josh and I traveling to a city two hours away, twice in one month. My doctors told me not to travel, so we’re STILL trying to figure out how to get my passport and residence permit back.

Josh drove our car to Germany and back in five days. He took it for a required inspection that has to be done in Germany every two years.

I now have a surface level blood clot in one leg, related to varicose veins from pregnancy. I’ve been to the doctor four times in the last two weeks. The clot is healing and is not life threatening, but now I have to be monitored continually until the end of the pregnancy.

And then there’s just normal life. Family with two small kids, ministry, and keeping up our home.

During this season of challenges, I saw a meme floating around Facebook that resonated with my heart.


This struck me, because the whole “God won’t give you more than you can handle” concept has been a popular one for years. I’m sure I’ve said it myself. And believed it.

Problem is, we all go through times in life when this idea feels like a joke. Or when we feel condemned because we think we “should” be managing the challenges, but we’re sure we can’t survive even one more day.

In the past months, I’ve thought, “I’m not strong enough. Not a good enough Mama. Not a real missionary…”


And then I reflected on this verse in 2 Corinthians. “…this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead.”

Friends, are you like me, always trying to be sufficient in yourself? Trying to keep up, prove that you’re strong?

I don’t believe God caused the problems our family has experienced these past months, but I believe He’s using them to teach us not to rely on ourselves. And why would we, when we walk with the God who has power to bring life from death?

So, if you’re struggling today or in this season of life, remember: rather than drawing from your own finite strength, turn to the God who has power over death. He is all sufficient. He didn’t promise to take away all your problems, and I won’t guarantee that your circumstances will change. But He will give you strength and endurance for the trials. And even in these times, He wants to show you His love and grace.

Scars and struggles on the way,

But with joy our hearts can say

Never once did we ever walk alone.

Carried by Your constant grace,

Held within Your perfect peace

Never once, no we never walk alone.

Never once did we ever walk alone.

Never once did You leave us on our own.

You are faithful. God, You are faithful.

Every step we are breathing in Your grace.

Evermore, we’ll be breathing out Your praise.

You are faithful.

God, You are faithful!

–  Never Once, Shane and Shane

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